in the prince's lair

i wish you could see the truth in all of this. because truth is, i've been completely honest with you all along. i've got nothing to hide. i hope that you'll be able to figure it all out soon, because i like you.

i'm sitting at home doing nothing
i could be doing something
but i chose not to
i have no idea why
i should be out right now.
whatever.

i have a headache and feel like shit. i stayed home from school today. blood brothers last night was pretty amazing. coheed was super lame. well for the two songs i stayed for at least.

blahhh

i feel like shit and i want to go to sleep forever.


this is not what i want to say in my livejournal at all, there's so much more i feel like saying. but i don't feel like getting into it.

.xmagnacartax. had a show at URI tonight. it was fucking awesome. we did a song for song battle with my tire is flat and so is my heart. i got beat the fuck up. we're banned from ever playing URI ever again. it was so much fun. for the 5 minutes it lasted. <3

i've been staring at this screen for the past 15 minutes. i really feel like talking with someone, but there's no one who i feel like talking to. i don't have a phone card like i promised i would have, but if i did, i'd be using up all of the minutes right now.

i want to watch death cab over and over.

i'm staying out of all the business with people in general lately, and some have gotten really angry with me. well, to you i say i don't care. i truly just do not care. i don't want to hear about it. i don't have the energy to deal with it. i'm apathetic. i'm indifferent. i mean i guess i care. i care about you all. but i don't care for the situations that you're putting each other in. and dragging me down with you.

death cab was really great. it was pretty much perfect while they were playing. i couldn't have been happier.

that's all for now.

there has been so much going on in my life. school, work, etc. but i want to let everyone know about some things.

as some of you know, i'm organizing a huge hurricane relief show, katrita relief show. this has been a huge undertaking so far, but i hope everyone can make it out.

also, i've been working a lot on my website. it's getting about 400 hits a day, so i'm pretty excited about that. it has this new photoblog that i'm starting to work on as well. as you can see, i have my plate full.

this, along with downloading the new lightning bolt cd, has been keeping me up for hours.

just wanted to check in with everyone and let you know i'm alive.
<3

there are three people that i miss terribly right now.
one is my best friend. she's with jude law and a semester abroad.
the other is my best friend. she's loving life, and i'm happy for her.
and the other is the one that i miss more than i thought i ever would.
the summer wasn't long enough.. i needed more time.
and i want to see them all.
and i will.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
jessica
uarhaisnfasih3-pfa9is
rrr
yio make me mash my fucking keyboard
come the fuck home
thisd suckskcjnsiaoah0f
no
dont come homw
enjoy it
no more talking
i'll let you have your time
i love you
knbougah-98wifnskn
kebye

mg4<3

i've given up on chasing girls
i made my first circuit bent instrument.. i'll post pictures and sounds sometime
i'm exhausted
i don't know how much longer i can take these nights
work is a killlllllerrrr
except when me and dennis scream tbs at 11:00
then i like it a lot.
<3

i have terrible insomnia lately.
tomorrow is packed with school, surprise lunches, haircuts, and ice cream.
i will be a wreck. i need fucking sleep.

i want to listen to the unicorns and work on circuit bending.
<3

i'm going to play guitar as much as i possibly can until i'm as good at guitar as dennis is at drums. no joke. i'm gonna do it.

summer is over
what am i doing with my liiiiife
jessica leaves tomorrow
i fucking hate that we can never hang out for more than a month consistently
rrrrrrrr
noabvlkblah
i dont even know right now
kali's leaving too now that we're friends again
and smanatha
and everyone

but jackie's staying
and dennis is staying

but dennis, you better snap out blahblahblah. someone needs to yell at you in a drunken stupor, and it's not gonna be me. rrr

thanksbye.

mmmmm yeah i was waiting for this conversation
thank god it finally happened
:)
i feel pretty good about everything now
dork




dennis i miss you a lot.
i'm serious.
i love you.
come backkkk


wow livejournal do i neglect you
my pictures from the trip were awesome
i need to do those again

ok
i will try to document tomorrow by pictures
<3



and lots of naked max for all the ladies ;)

matt demello.
i hope you see what i mean.<3

finally, after five weeks and three days, i climbed into my bed. i swear i'm in heaven. there is absolutely no place in the world i would rather be. there is absolutely no one that i would want to be here with me. i'm so comfortable, i might fall asleep right now.

i had an amazing welcome home with geoffrey. let's just say, we hung out with a homeless man that got twenty dollars to swim across the providence river during waterfire. it was wild. then today, i saw bright eyes, jim james, m. ward, and elvis costello.

i finally saw jackie. and jess. and dennis. and robin. and daniel. i'm happy. i don't want to leave rhode island ever again. at least not for a year. i'm not joking. i mean, sure i'll go to any bordering states if i have to. but no more trips for me. i don't want to go on vacation. i don't want to go to any city but providence. let me tell you.. everyone that was saying "oh, you're going cross country? i wish i was anywhere but here in fucking rhode island." you're wrong. don't misunderstand me though. i LOVED the cross country trip, and i'm not exaggerating in any way. i know i had some pretty angsty posts complaining and whatnot, but overall, it was the trip of a lifetime. and i'm glad i was with my family. we had a great time. not many families would be able to stay together after being for 3 days nonstop, let alone over a month.

i don't know where i'm going with that. all i know is that it's great to be back :)

i'm pretty tired
we drove a lot today
we'll be home in 3 days tops
i'm happy about that
we're all happy about that
i wish i made more out of this trip
but i got a lot more out of it that most people think
and if you think i'm a spoiled asshole, whatever

i don't know what it's gonna be like when i come home
different than before i left, that's for sure
i just want to write music
play with casey and dennis
go to shows
see jessica and jackie
relax before school
never leave rhode island again

i think i'm taking a break from relationships
i can't handle them
everyone reading this pretty much knows that already
i need a break
we'll see how long it lasts

maxwell and i have formed a musical collective. we are called cleric vs. cleric. we will have a myspace page up soon. we have 5 hit singles.

<3

it's a long drive home in the rainy dark.

figure 8
sea change
the photo album


that's what keeps me going.

ps:

q: are we not men?